Etched with marks but I can deal.

First off, I'd just like to say sorry for ruining any of your happy post-Valentine's feelings. I only just realised I posted the melancholic post the day after what seemed like some people's favourite holiday.

Secondly, I just want to thank everybody for their concern and understanding. I really was, and still am, angry at life.
It was good to hear friends, even ones I hadn't talked to in weeks, maybe months, tell me about their own experiences. Not that it makes me feel good to know that you guys have also been in pain, but just because it makes me feel a little less like an outsider. It feels good to feel understood.

I'm glad I posted that whole story. It has been a good conversation starter, however silly that may sound. It made friends who I hadn't talk to in a long time start MSN conversations. And yes, I know I can always talk to my friends about these types of things, but I usually feel very uncomfortable to do so. It just feels weird, because even as a kid I was never very open.

Even though Lotte is right, the "kutkinderen" only read what they want to read, I felt a whole weight lifted off my shoulders. And if they want to think I'm suicidal, then so be it. I couldn't care less what they think of me; they don't know me and don't talk to me either, so whatever thoughts they have about me are probably either wrong or.. uh nevermind. Just wrong. They don't have anything to base it on.

So I just wanted to say thanks everyone, both those that commented here and those that talked to me online. I do hope I can post fun, happy stuff after this.