I had a match last night and some homework assignments on top of that, so I ended up going to bed at 11:45 which is almost two hours later than the time I try to go to bed at (for your information, that's 10pm). As a result of less than 7 hours sleep I was tired, naturally.
This afternoon, 6th period, I had my second Physics lesson with my new teacher. I'm not sure whether I've said this before, but Mr. Banning, the *excuse the rudeness* crap Physics teacher isn't teaching V4 anymore, so I now have a different one.
Last week I was absent (THIMUN), so yesterday was my first lesson with the new teacher. I'm not sure he got a good impression of me, because when he saw I had a 4.6 (I know I suck, don't rub it in my face) he had a disappointed-ish look. I'd told him I hadn't scored too well (2.1 -OK, I really suck at Physics this year) on the other test and he just looked even more disappointed but also amazed at the same time. Amazed at my low grades. We had a short talk about what I'm going to do about my grades, work hard etc yadiyadiyah, but that's not relevant for this post.
Back to my king-sized fatigue. I started to notice my concentration drifting away after the first 10 minutes of Biology which I had first period. The rest of the day was okay, I got along, had trouble concentrating but at least I wasn't dozing off. Untill Physics. The teacher + his assistant were doing this demo, it was boring as hell so naturally I starting dozing off again and eventually I fell asleep. Although I must say I only slept for two minutes, I woke up after the guy sitting behind me yelled something.
The funniest of it all was that when I woke up, the assistant who was in the middle of explaining something, said something along the lines of "Thanks for waking up again." To which the kid behind me said something like "Thanks." I don't think he knows that I was really sleeping and that the comment was 'for' me.
The only thing that's bothering me, is the impression the new teacher must have of me. Yesterday we were discussing my low as ever grades and today he might have seen me sleeping. My second lesson with him, and I start sleeping. Not a great sign of motivation to improve grades.
Ah well. Like someone else has already told me, I need to make up for lost hours at school.
*Geez, I keep forgetting this list. Seriously, how does Emilie manage to remember every single time?!*
What sucked today: being way too tired to bike home (other than falling asleep)
What rocked today: pwning Nienke in maths
What I needed today: a printer
What I wanted today: "sex in chocolate ball form"
(No, I'm not quitting with inside jokes. I'll do so when I feel like it.)
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sounds like you really like physics. no really, this physics obsession means you subconsiously are addicted to physics and you love it. the fact that your grades are crap is because you are rebelling against yourself; you're in denial of liking physics and therefore you get these type of grades. try meditation to find inner peace and your grades will be better.
I am indeed addicted to Physics. If I didn't like, I'd be doing C&M right now, which is like educational suicide.
Would you happen to have any tips for this meditation?
I'm willing to try it, almighty 0518141920.
If meditation is the way, then that's what we'll do.
to be honest, meditation is fairly easy: you sit down somewhere, whether noisy or quiet, where you won't be disquieted. You close your eyes to concentrate on yourself. Your feelings, your thoughts; contemplating it all will bring you to insight. Just take a few minutes; the longer you have the time, the more you can contemplate and understand. Me swears: it works for organising your brain, to make room for things you need to learn newly, such as physics.
Please tape yourself doing this, I need an instructional video because my stupid brains can't handle all this, there's no room in my brain. I just can't visualise it all.
I went to bed at about 00:45 yesterday. I was in the middle of a great conversation :P.
meditation: just sit down and think about your life/emotions/stuff. damn ik kon vandaag niet eens in slaap vallen, zelfs als ik me er zou concentreren, bij physics.. ik had niesten en een paar andere achter me zitten.
ok i'm off to bed.
Erm, I'm an insane perfectionist? My posting takes half an hour at the very least? (There is actually a reason I don't post very often -- it just takes too long)
And I have to a agree with wiseforonce!sister up there. Thinking usually helps, or at least I imagine it does for you normal people. I most often just get very melancholic, hehe.
For what it's worth, I'm thoroughly exhausted, too. Even after sleeping two days in a row.
OH, AND C&M IS NOT EDUCATIONAL SUICIDE, DAMN IT! ^^
Seriously though, for people who know they don't want to do anything scientific - like me - it works just fine.
It's educational suicide for me. I may be a *star* at French, but my German...ahum. I can't even remember the die/der/das things.
I probably won't do anything scientific either, but I wanted to keep my options open.
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